Today is the day that the twins start nursery. The thought of this day kept me going during the toughest times of 4 under 4. I knew it wouldn’t last forever and at that point I needed to know that. Recently though the thought of this day has been looming as an ending. An ending to my time of having babies and an ending to my real period of SAHM. I won’t be heading back to the office anytime soon, but will I really be a stay at home mum when there are no littles at home during the day?
I will miss so much about this period of my life as it is really special having babies and being their everything, but I do also feel really positive about the next chapter where I am no longer at the mercy of the will of a toddler. I mean toddlers are funny and toddlers are super cute, but they are also exhausting and all consuming.
So how will I feel today as I drop those little loves off at nursery and as they start their first adventure without me? Well I have summed it all up in my own little ditty.
They are going to nursery; today is the start
The start of a new chapter that might break my heart
‘The babies’, we call them; are babies no more
How will I feel as they walk through that door?
They are starting an adventure, but one without me
Its a great thing for them; that of course I can see
So today I will smile as I wave them goodbye
Don’t tell them, but inside I might cry
8 years the house has been full of riot
Again again I have prayed for the quiet
But I’ll miss all the crazy, the noise and the fun
I’ll miss those smiles lighting my day like the sun
I’ll miss so much between 9 and 3
But I strongly suspect I might re-find ‘me’
It’s exciting, it’s scary to face something new
So here goes nothing and girls I love you!